I can’t be the only one that has discussed BlogHer with their therapist

Tomorrow I leave for a 5 day trip to New York. By myself. Well, that’s not exactly true. I’m traveling with a couple of very hip ladies. When we get to NYC I’m meeting another fabulous lady I’ve know through the internets for nearly five years. And then there is the fact that there will be around 2400+ other women (and a few men)  hanging around with a similar agenda. BlogHer.

But I’m not traveling with family. I’m not traveling with my best friend and my little boy. I’m traveling with people I know just a little. Frankly, it is freaking me out a bit.

Add to that the fact that I’ve never been to New York or to a conference centered around blogging and my anxiety levels are off the charts right now.

I kind of want to puke.

I also want to have an amazing time. I want to meet new people. Connect with friends I’ve only known online. Learn. Laugh. Photograph.

I’m not packed yet. I’m trying. Clothes are out. Shoes are too. I even have a surge protector strip tossed in my suitcase. And snacks. So it’s a start.

I’m also really good at procrastinating.

That does nothing for the anxiety.

And let me just say that when you do laundry every couple of days and rarely attend cocktail parties, it is really hard to put together outfits for 5 days that don’t showcase the fact that you will happily wear the same pair of jeans several days in a row. With t-shirts. And very little make-up. Which is why the clothes are out. I had to make sure I actually had enough things to wear for 5 days. I kind of fail at the whole fashion thing.

I’ll pack all the cords, memory cards, and various electronics up as soon as everything gets a nice fresh charge.

I’ll sleep like shit Tuesday night in anticipation of the 5 a.m. alarm Wednesday morning.

I’ll probably cry when I leave my husband and son behind.

Hopefully I won’t puke.

And at some point Wednesday morning I’ll descend upon New York City for the first time in my life.

I’ll have an amazing time. I’ll meet new people. Connect with friends I’ve only known online. Learn. Laugh. Photograph.

I can’t wait.

Be gentle with me New York. I’m just a little worm burrowing my way through the Big Apple this weekend.

18 comments to I can’t be the only one that has discussed BlogHer with their therapist

  • WELCOME to NYC!

    I went to BlogHer for the first time last year and felt pretty much the same as you. It was good.

    I hope you have a great time.

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    Holly {ArtistMotherTeacher} Reply:

    Thanks! I’m really excited about the whole experience. Even with all the anxiety.

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  • HostDime

    I just wanted to make sure that your comments page was still working fine. <3 HostDime

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    Holly {ArtistMotherTeacher} Reply:

    Thanks. :)

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  • ok….. TESTING……..

    assuming that this comment now goes through, here’s what i got to say…. holly, you are going to rock NYC and have a fantastic time. it’s always the beforehand that induces the most anxiety, but as soon as you are with your crew tomorrow, y’all can freak out together and you won’t be alone.

    in the meantime, should you freak out some more today, you have my number… cuz ya know, i freak out a lot and stuff.

    LOVE YOU!!!!!

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    Holly {ArtistMotherTeacher} Reply:

    Now that I’m actually at the hotel I’m good. Just need some food in me and then perhaps a nap. It is going to be an exhausting weekend.

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  • Hooray! I’m glad it was a quick fix, although I know it’s been a stressful couple of hours for you.

    It seems like the message for the day is “This too will pass” – an especially good one for me to remember when I’m focusing a bit too much on an undesired state.

    It helps me now as I think nervously about going to BlogHer ’10 (and I, too, will be leaving my best friend and young son at home for the first time).

    I remind myself that the anxiety will pass and there’s so much to look forward to. I’m so excited about the amazing opportunity to meet so many other women who have a similar passion for writing and sharing their gifts and encouraging others to do the same.

    The excitement and satisfaction, like the anxiety, will pass, too, so where do I want to put my focus?

    It’s so cool you’re coming to NYC for the first time! My younger brother lives there (well, he *just* moved to CA, but hasn’t sold his apartment yet, so that’s where I’m staying), so I’ve had an excuse to visit at least once a year forever (my son calls it “Uncle Bobby’s City”). If you want to see a bit of the West Village (where he lives), just let me know and I’d be happy to take you around to some of the fabulous shops and restaurants!

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    Holly {ArtistMotherTeacher} Reply:

    Apart from almost puking in the cab on the way to the hotel the trip here was uneventful.

    Now I can relax and enjoy fully what the next five days have in store.

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  • Oh, I should mention (this was in the comment I tried to leave before): I only just found out I’m going to BlogHer a few days ago when a friend offered me a free ticket – when I realized that I could stay at my brother’s for free and I had an air “miles” for a free flight I felt like I couldn’t pass up the opportunity. But still *everything* about this event is putting myself waaaay outside of my comfort zone. :-)

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    Holly {ArtistMotherTeacher} Reply:

    Wow! Enjoy and please be sure to look me up at some point.

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  • Amy

    I’ve only ever read this one post of yours and now I’m looking forward to meeting you. I assume you’ll be at the Aiming Low party Friday night?! See you there!

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    Holly {ArtistMotherTeacher} Reply:

    I will! Can’t wait.

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  • naynayfazz

    I cannot wait to meet you. We’re going to have a rockin’ time. :)

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    Holly {ArtistMotherTeacher} Reply:

    Yay! Me too.

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  • Okay where are the recaps? You’ve been home for a few hours by now. :)

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    Holly {ArtistMotherTeacher} Reply:

    OMG. Why does vacation exhaust me so much? I’m STILL recouping.

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  • I had a good time meeting you.

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    Holly {ArtistMotherTeacher} Reply:

    Nice meeting you too. Hope you enjoyed BlogHer!

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