I have had the house completely to myself since noon and will for the next few hours and I’m wasting my time. Playing stupid shit on Facebook like Bejeweled and sitting here staring at the computer when I have so many other things I could be doing. It’s kind of depressing.
I don’t get much time alone anymore. When I do I have no idea what to do with it. It feels foreign, like a language that I studied in high school. So instead of doing productive things I waste my time of trivial crap. Next thing I know my day is gone and I wonder how that happened.
So today—right now as a matter of fact—I’m not going to waste anymore time doing nothing. I’m going to do something.
I just don’t know what that is yet.
You’re still doing nothing, aren’t you? me too.
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*pixie* Reply:
November 9th, 2009 at 8:50 pm
Heh, actually I did get a couple things accomplished. I priced out a bunch of frames did some work in the yard pulling up the garden, harvesting the seeds from the morning glories to plant next year, and tending to one of the flower beds.
Now I’m back to doing nothing.
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I have days like those too. Actually, today is one of them. I call them, “I can’t motivate days” They are frustrating days but I just roll with it and then make up for it the next day and then usually have another one, you know a day here and a day there.
Well, I hope you got something done, umm. I am off to do a load a laundry I will count that as something accomplished (lol)
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*pixie* Reply:
November 9th, 2009 at 8:52 pm
It’s too bad doing nothing is so easy.
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Oh I completely know what you mean. The internet is a time suck. A whore of a time suck, too, because it makes you believe you are being productive when you just aren’t, dammit.
And when I have time alone? Like real time alone? Yup, I’m inert. What the hell am I supposed to do? There is SO MUCH to do that I can’t seem to figure out which thing to choose or how to begin. It’s like I am a toddler and I need a push in the right direction. Totally pathetic.
All of this is the reason why if I accomplish any more than the bare necessities of life I am a self-proclaimed goddess. Yup, anything beyond dishes and laundry and butt-wiping and I’m golden for the day.
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*pixie* Reply:
November 14th, 2009 at 3:09 pm
Dishes being done are a luxury for us. When you don’t have a dishwasher it easily becomes the most hated chore in the house. Even above butt-wiping.
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Read a book!
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Honestly, I don’t want to play games on Facebook. I update my status now and then, see what people are up to at the moment, and mostly try to stay away from it.
If I don’t change my status every few days, my mom gets calls from one of my aunts to see if I’m doing ok. I think that’s odd!
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*pixie* Reply:
November 14th, 2009 at 3:10 pm
That is odd.
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I never have the right motivation on days I have time to get things done. I always work better under pressure.
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*pixie* Reply:
November 14th, 2009 at 3:10 pm
Exactly! Then I stress out because I’m under so much pressure.
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