This is me on January 16th. The day that would—like others have in the past—change my life forever.
It’s been eleven days since a piece of my soul died. Eleven days. And while I’m no longer crying uncontrollably over my loss, the sadness is still there. All you have to do is look into my eyes to see it.
But I’m getting better.
Your loss is a very real loss and grieving takes time. Hang in there.
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*pixie* Reply:
January 27th, 2010 at 11:00 pm
Thanks. I’m certainly trying.
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Ever tried Ignatia Amara? It really helps. Hugs,
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*pixie* Reply:
January 27th, 2010 at 11:01 pm
I’ve never even heard of it.
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know what? You look great! Liking the top and the necklace.
(but yeah, I can see it in your eyes… I’m so sorry Pixie – I wish on all the stars, upon all the wishes, that you weren’t going through this, I wish that I could turn back time, and everything would be okay…
Many hugs.
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*pixie* Reply:
January 28th, 2010 at 4:54 pm
Thank you. Hugs.
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i’m really glad you posted this, for yourself… as a reminder of your journey, though painful brings the promise of beauty and strength.
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*pixie* Reply:
January 28th, 2010 at 4:53 pm
I’m just working my way through it the best I can. I think it’s working.
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I think grieving is probably the hardest thing a human can go through. Kind words, love and support help, but it can be so lonely – because it’s something you essentially have to deal with in your own mind and heart. I have thought you of so many times over the last twelve days. My thoughts have been for you to find some peace. Love ya.
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*pixie* Reply:
January 28th, 2010 at 4:51 pm
Thanks Amber. We love you.
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My condolences for your loss. I do see it in your eyes. HUGS.
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*pixie* Reply:
January 28th, 2010 at 4:50 pm
Thanks. Hugs for sure.
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You are doing yourself right by taking the time you need to heal. I am so sorry for your loss. Strength to you and your husband.
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*pixie* Reply:
January 28th, 2010 at 4:49 pm
Thank you Karen.
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Love for you, lady.
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*pixie* Reply:
January 28th, 2010 at 4:48 pm
Love back.
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All of you… the grief and willingness to be open about, too… is simply beautiful. You are a complete person, a woman of nuances and you wear your life experiences well.
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*pixie* Reply:
January 28th, 2010 at 4:48 pm
Wow Lisa. I am really moved by your words. You are awesome.
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You can see so much of your pain, I am so sorry you went through this sweetie. So sorry.
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*pixie* Reply:
February 1st, 2010 at 4:59 pm
Me too. Maybe someday way down the line I’ll understand why. Right now it just sucks.
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I see strength in those eyes too. Strength behind the loss. That is something that so many people lack and I admire you greatly so it. You are an inspiration to women everywhere.
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*pixie* Reply:
February 1st, 2010 at 5:00 pm
I hope you see the same strength in your eyes when you look in the mirror. If you can’t right now, try seeing mine instead. Hugs.
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