I’ve been thinking a lot about transparency lately. Who I am. Who I have been. Who I still want to be. And how much of all of that I want to share. Things have changed so much since I started my blog five years ago. I posted for a completely different reason back then. I was a totally different person. The internet was a different place. I believed I needed the quasi-anonymity I was creating by not using my name.
And so I became *Pixie*.
But like I said, things have changed over the past five years. I have built real relationships and friendships online. Those people know my name. I joined Facebook and connected with friends old, new, and those I haven’t met yet in person. They know my name. I met even more people on Twitter. Many of them are local and many of them I have met in person. Guess what? They all know my name.
So it seems that *Pixie* is not really necessary anymore. And it is a little embarrassing to introduce myself that way. But the name is rooted in me. It marks the beginning of a part of my life that I can’t imagine not having experienced.
Which makes giving it up that much harder. A little part of me will always be *pixie*.
But there is so much more.
I am an artist.
A mother.
A teacher.
I am Holly.
Very nice to meet you. My name is Meredith. I am the Human Resources Manager at the Ed Schmidt Auto Group. There. I said it, too.
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*pixie* Reply:
May 4th, 2010 at 12:09 am
Meredith, this totally made me smile and not feel like such a dork. Thank you for that.
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I have been thinking of this too but in a different way. I am tired of the Vegas connection in my blog name. So I’m thinking of changing it. Changing my name, my blog, my direction.
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*pixie* Reply:
May 4th, 2010 at 12:11 am
I think that would be super exciting for you!
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Hi Holly!
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*pixie* Reply:
May 4th, 2010 at 12:12 am
Hi Michelle!
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I was just working on redesigning my blog (again) and thinking that maybe I should be more ME than pgoodness….great minds I guess!!
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*pixie* Reply:
May 4th, 2010 at 12:16 am
Great minds indeed.
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Hi Holly. I actually understand this so much. I was QoP for so long that it’s still there, in me. But I was so much more than QoP. I’m Julie. I’m me.
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*pixie* Reply:
May 4th, 2010 at 12:21 am
You leaving a comment is really what this post encompasses. I met you as QoP but over the years have come to know you as Julie. And when I think of you as either one I think sass and flip-flops.
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I like you as Pixie, Holly, Artistmotherteacher… you are you, and that’s your wonderful appeal. Congrats on dropping the anonymity! I’m not quite there yet myself, but want to be, so I admire you.
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*pixie* Reply:
May 4th, 2010 at 12:24 am
There are times when I wish my blog was more anonymous but since it isn’t I might as well be true to myself. Dressing up isn’t always comfortable when you prefer jeans and a t-shirt. Know what I mean?
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i truly adore you, holly.. truly.
this is a beautiful read.
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Holly {ArtistMotherTeacher} Reply:
May 9th, 2010 at 1:15 am
Thanks Nic. You are pretty awesome yourself.
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